HELP I HATE MY DAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?

im 16. my parents are divorced. i see my dad on weekends. he just got remarried. i hate my new stepmom. she swears at me. my dad is a lawyer. when i ask for cloths, my stepmom says i dont deserve it. she gives me time outs and if i dont like her dinner, she makes me starve. on friday, i went to my dads. i got into a fight with my stepmom. i flipped her off. my dad got mad and talked to me. he ended up crying because he missed me. i only see him once every few months. i told him i hate my stepmom. he told me to accept it, but she is so rude. then i ended up walking home from my dads house because i didnt want to be there anymore. it was like 3 miles of walking. my dad is supposed to pick me up tomorrow but im just going to ditch him. when i ask for something, he wont buy it. when i call him, he doesnt answer. i have ditched him before. why did he cry? i can never see my dad until he dumps his wife. i asked him "its either me or her." my dad said "her" so i ran out of his house crying. nobody cares about me. i go to bed crying because i miss my daddy. HELP!