Does the hope for knowledge ruin us?

I believe it does. The want to know if there is a god has put me on a quest to see if there is for probably over two years, I'm sure people are in the same boat. This is the unanswerable question in my opinion. I feel that there is and always will be that missing link in science. I am a firm believer in abiogenesis, evolution, and the big bang theory. They are proved rather you want to be ignorant about it or so you can have false security. Atheist are extremist on one side of the graph, while theist are on another. Atheist haven't come to realize that matter cannot spontaneously generate out of nothingness, while theist haven't come to realize that nothing is perfect (as none of us Truly have), we can't make our own facts, and life is a lot more complicated than a book or two. I realize I know nothing compared to what the universe has in store for us. My hope is to gather as much as I can, does anyone us feel the same way? Any information you'd like to share? - I am only 14, 2 years is 1/7th on my life.